Why do we ignore all the signs? Are we secretly hoping we are wrong? Are we waiting for things to get better? If we trying to stick it out? Or, are we just afraid to be alone? To start over? To process the pain… to deal with ourselves? Why do we stay in these toxic relationships when we know we shouldn’t? When everything in our mind and body is telling us no. We try so hard to find the one reason.. the one thing, the one piece of hope and we use it. We call them different things. A sign, Faith, Hope, memory, history, destiny, coincidence. But what is it that ties us so deeply to one person that makes the thought of walking away and letting go so gut-wrenching that we would prefer to stay.. to try… to give it another shot, to work on it than to walk away? Are humans just so wired for love, comfort, connection, and interaction that it makes us so vulnerable, so weak, so powerless, that we can’t even find the strength to tell ourselves the truth? The truth is that we are far better off being away from whatever we have cooked up in our minds.

Thoughts are powerful and your mind will play games. It can trick your heart into believing anything is possible. And soon enough your actions will follow. You too will believe it and start to act on it. And that’s why we stay. We stay longer than needed and ended up in deeper pain than what we bargained for. It’s not so bad out there. Ok, that’s a lie. It’s pretty darn awful, to say the least. It’s lonely, it’s cold, it can even be miserable. So yeah, you’re right. It’s better to stay. Or, is it? Aren’t we just as miserable, alone, scared, hopeless, and sad in our current situation? So what’s the point? Isn’t it better to be all those things but on your terms? When we aren’t obligated to anyone? No kids, no marriage, no intertwined life? Where does it get complicated and where do we undo the complications? Is it just too late now? Did we just miss a deadline? What does that mean going forward? Is there hope? Will it all change? Or is that just another lie we’ve cooked up for mere survival?